Wednesday, 18 April 2012

Easiest Suicide Methods for a Painless and Effective Suicide

How to suicide 
So, at last you found me. What have you searched ?-Is it The Easiest suicide methods or the most effective suicide methods or How to commit suicide or How to do suicide painlessly?.
Whatever you may have searched over internet, about ways to suicide.There could be 2 thing; either you really want to commit suicide or you are searching for fun.
Searching for fun is good-Its OK- your knowledge would increase but If you are thinking to kill yourself then its something serious.In both the case this post would be a boon for you.
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Disclaimer:This blog post contains information, written for the sake of knowledge-Reader should keep in mind that suicide is crime.

There are more then 100 method for committing suicide but we will discuss some common suicidal methods found around the world.
So here is the list
1: Cutting wrist: This is one of the most common methods in India.This is a very-VERY slow and painful way of dying. Before cutting your wrist, make sure the knife or blade is clean.(One of my friend didn`t die but got septic.)
To cut your own wrist is not a good idea. First of all you have to cut at-least 1 inch deep and that too a deep side cut otherwise you will just get faint after few initial painful minutes and secondly it will take at least 2 to 4 hours to die. Drop this one.

2: Hanging yourself: Not a bad option but it gives you immense pain. You might not have suffered even half of it ever. For initial few minutes, you will feel every muscle of your throat getting ripped and hurting. And If your neck won`t brake you gonna regret for your whole life. You won`t be able to eat anything for at-least few weeks after you are saved; even won`t be able to swallow your own spit and speak. You will have a temporary tattoo on your neck for a month. Not good....

3: Arms: Fire arms are the most common weapon of suicide around the world.Shooting your self from point blank range at your face, in your mouth or chin can give you thrill but it will definitely dis-configure your face.Every bit of your face will tear up. and I think you won`t love to die in a bad shape.

4: Jumping: Jumping was a game, invented for fun but as humans always do, we misused this. This is one of the most dangerous way of dying. Suppose you jumped from some where and god forbid you didn`t die. Life would become hell for you, Friend.
Now, to live without a hand or a leg or live Intellectually challenged would be worse then what you are living Right now. I will suggest drop this.

5: Immolation:- Setting yourself up in fire. Ooo believe me-in a fit of depression people take this extreme step but who so ever has taken, regretted it. This is the most painful way. I even can`t stand the burn of single match stick, leave about setting my self up in fire.

6: Have poison: This method was very popular in 90 and 80 but now we are way ahead of these. The Methods used were like eat some thing poisonous, Toxic elements,Drug over dose,or pesticides. But why to end this beautiful life with these dirty things. Drop this-you can be saved by medical help-not full proof.

7: Vehicular suicide: Again one among the commons.People jump in front of rails, buses, they push their cars off hills, and these days people love to jump in front of metros also. This could be used but totally luck dependent. In 80% cases you will be saved and will live rest of your life definitely without a limb. 

8: Drowning: If you don`t know swimming, then only, it can work for you. It is little easier then jumping from a building because in case you are saved; you will be as you were.
But before you go and commit suicide i would ask you to read little further-Obviously It won`t hurt to read few lines before you die.

I want to die because No body loves me:----There are several millions children who needs a person like you to love them.No body cares about them, No parents, No home...You can find them on Railways stations, Bus stands, Parks...Have a missions to love at least one.I sure they will find you lovable.

I didn`t get admission in my fave college:-----The world is full of those people who never went to college or won`t be able to see even the cheapest one. Does your ability depends on the college or the college depends on the able students. Only handful of colleges can reject you whatever their criterias are but as i say millions would be more then happy to have you.

My girlfriend left me or she don`t respect me-i didn`t get the desired girl-No girl likes me:--You should die..Jokes apart, You know in a recent survey it has been told that 80% of the human race love the person or like the person who love himself. Will you like me if i hate my self. Love your self buddy. I am there for you.

I am financially broke-I have no money-I am in deep debt:- When you were born how much money you had ..I guess nothing-God didn`t give you any money then.Think about it for a moment-He gave you every thing which was necessary ear to listen ,eyes to see, hand to grab and touch. mouth to eat, tongue to taste and many more but he didn`t give money.WHY ? 

I can`t do what i want--You don`t know Ashish Every thing bad is happening with me:- Yup you are the most unlucky one.More unlucky then my one eyed neighbor who met with an accident last month and lost his one leg. Or more unluckier then my newlywed friend whose husband was murdered. Even more unluckier then Me who lost his job , Whose salary was withhold, Lost his age old friend.Was in deep debt and lot more.

There are many reason who are best known to you:-Yes dear friend I don`t know you. You may be someone from UK,USA,Australia, Ireland, India, Pakistan, Africa or any part of the world. You could be a girl, a boy, a lady , a man, old, young. You can be any one but believe me there is nobody on this whole earth like you and won`t be ever. You are a precious soul. A soul born to help others.
There are several things you can do with this life not just ending it abruptly.
 Still If you really want to commit suicide, Go on...I won`t stop.
But before that just drop me a E-mail 
The address is given at my profile page.

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764 comments:

  1. Ashish, my friend.
    You are so right. you have my respect.
    Love,
    Amit, Russia.

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    1. the best way i can secure my childs future is by not giving birth to him.i regret that my father had no vision.

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  2. i have to die... i don't wanna live on the world.........

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    1. Me too. I am so lonely and afraid, tired of trying.

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    2. I feel your pain guys. I've been feeling it since I was 6 when I tried to commit suicide twice. I feel that fear your loneliness maybe your cry over nothing but pure frustration but look for hope. I know it's tough but everyday it's a battle and we have to fight for our lives our happiness. We fight against ourselves So think positive everyday even if you think it's dumb do it after awhile you start having hope again

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    3. I'm 55 almost 56 and have done the positive thing for years. The raw truth is I am a blight on this earth. I have tremendous physical and mental problems due to an abusive childhood (mental) and my last marriage created worse mental problems and physical problems as well. I'm so poor I live in a trailer that would be condemned by the housing authority, have worked hard all my life and can't get ahead and am so lonely it literally hurts; with absolutely no hope of finding someone. If I were to commit suicide, I'd not only be one less pollution creating individual, I would free my position up for someone else - maybe someone who has kids and needs a higher paying job. So, if I’m this unhappy and have been for years, along with tried different methods of being more positive, then the responsible, and most loving, avenue to take would be to alleviate this earth from a noncontributing individual.

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    4. I resonate with Jocelyn's story. I'm 35 and have battled with depression, DID, sexual/relationship problems, etc. my whole life. I was sexually abused, and my "soulmate"; a woman I had met after 14 years of loneliness, abandoned me because I could not please her in bed. She even called me a liar. I have then come to realize the truth about attraction and relationships - she left me because I was a "nice guy" and I wasn't enough fun for her. I have come to realize that this world is no place for idealistic, soft-hearted and gentle individuals - you get chewed up and spat out. As for a loving God that cares about you? what a load of BULL

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    5. Listen... I came onto this site because I feel the same way as all of you- absolutely hopeless, and like I don't deserve the space I take up in this world. But, reading your stories, I want you all to live, and maybe in wanting all of you to live, I can find a glimmer of hope for myself. All of us have good inside and deserve to be here, and life can and will get better.

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    6. Also, thank you, Ashish, for surprising very sad people with a note of hope. This was something I needed.

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    7. Jason, I am so sorry that your ex was so heartless. I too have been abused, and my last "relationship" ended in disaster, with me wounded beyond my own disbelief.its the nice responsible people in this world who get used up and tossed aside, believe me i know

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    8. pls dont do it guys its a wrong decision

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    9. Mohammed, Ellen, Jocelyn and to others: I understand your pain, frustration and I know you are desperate, but there is one more way you have not considered, and trust me when I say there is a WAY. It's mystic, forged by the gods through the hands of the universe. When problems can't be solved naturally, there are supernatural means of getting what we want, e-mail me: cliff.mystic@yahoo.com, cliff.mystic@gmail.com

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    10. I feel soo horrible..I want to die and Im searching for a effective method to do so...I want to die coz I cant cope up with my studies and everybody around me hate me.

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    11. Methadone is a very painless option, a fatal dose is 30 - 35 ml which can be bought on the street (if you know where to look). All that happens is you breathing becomes shallower and shallower until your hart stops beating...and thats it. Will take about 15 mins but you will be unconscious within minutes.

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    12. I'm going through with it... I just need to know the best way...

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    13. hey friend y u want 2 end ur life its not only u who go thrugh problems der are lots and lots of ppl face it thz da best thing u can do show other ppl dat u can live all dis problems and can get da key of success ..if u end up ur life will it give u a solution no not at all ....ppl who suicide r idiots face da problems god loves every1 he is giving u problems 2 know ur capability and strength and finally ur love towards him.. dont try 2 end up ur life how much u suffer now dat much happiness u will get later..
      1st of all try 2 undrstnd da problems and try solving it out slowly work hard and b happy friend ...life is precious ..... its like shakesprs sevenages poem u go through different stages ........ jus go through all dat and get experiences and share it with others ..........
      best of luck friend

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    14. @The Easy Way Out: You said, "METHADONE IS AN EASY WAY OUT." In fifteen minutes you will be out. Please, for the love of god, do NOT post misinformation. I've been on methadone for over a dozen years. It doesn't even take full effect for two hours, which is why so many people overdose. They think after an hour when they barely feel anything that they need more, so they take more, then in two hours, when it ALL KICKS in, it's fatal, hence a accidental overdose. I've overdosed on methadone three times only to wake-up on a respirator the next day.

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    1. world is like a rattrap but no1 is pushing u in2 it u urself jump in2 it
      analyse ur life proprly once u com 2 know u r cheated ...that dsnt mean da whole world is full of cheaters ...dat moment helps u 2 undrstand lots of other things .... try 2 g of al da problems and c dis world vit a +ve mind

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    2. Nobody should ever give up no matter what mistakes you have made.God is always there for you no matter what bad things happen. there is always the devil to discourage us. life is a battle.fight for your life. forgive yourself and ask for forgiveness.all the pain and Guilt you all may feel or unworthiness God has sent his son to die for us and he has taken all the weight on his shoulder so we can be set free. try to thnk positive and ask God for help. believe in Jesus. he loves us. dont fear. give your best each day to do right by people and love yourself. put good things in your mind and body and lift others up and help them and it will help you. Nothing good comes easy. dont give up! the devil can take your life and joy. remémore being a child and how much more we appreciated life and look forward to things. yeah life isnt a fairytale as we thought but may as well make the best of it. drugs smokes& alcohol
      are temporary highs and cause more pain later suicide could possibly send you to hellwhere youll brun forever. dont chance it!

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  4. i have a lot of friends, good job, good life, nice house, nice dog, nice family, nice girl im dating im very very social i make everybody laugh.
    but i just had it with this crap, hello how are you bla bla bla bla
    people having fund a this part, people dying at over part just make no sence.
    so pretty pretty pls can somebody tell how to kill you self withou any pain.
    tried it already by unfortuanally a friend find me. well thanx a lot hopefully good ideas will come . will be great :)

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    1. Or...you could gie away everything you have to people who may really need them and become a monk, or a hobo.

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    2. I want to know a painless way to die.

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    3. Lowflyer, I will tell you a guaranteed way of getting life, overcoming death and your problems. Its mystic, forged by gods through the hands of the universe. Trust me on this, it works. Email me: cliff.mystic@yahoo.com, cliff.mystic@gmail.com

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    4. painless way to die is to live the way you live. Cowards run away. Live it and face it....

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    5. u want 2 die inda sense u already decided 2 die then y dont u just do it instead of asking painless way of dying and all.......that itself shows u r scrd friend y do u want 2 do dis u r trying 2 die bcz u c ur life lyk som waste thing dont try 2 suicide bcz u r trying 2 escape from everything instead u face it dear

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  5. my mother is getting close to 100 she is 97, time is running out, i don't want her to die, i take care of her, plus i feel responsible for my brothers murder years ago, people have committed suicide for far less reason than me, i'm 58, have no friends, know i have to die, but not yet.

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    1. Tom foley, I understand your pain, frustration and I know you are desperate, but there is one more way you have not considered, and trust me when I say there is a WAY. It's mystic, forged by the gods through the hands of the universe. When problems can't be solved naturally, there are supernatural means of getting what we want, e-mail me: cliff.mystic@yahoo.com

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  6. Im broke no friends convicted owi felon and i wasnt even driving no i cant get a job my friends say thwy are there for me but no one is in site o took some pills yesterday and got drunk and passed out....i woke up today 28 hours later. It wasnt enough. To do the job. Im looking for a new way. And i dont know what to do. My family says they care but have disowned me all my life

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    1. That's not ur real body or ur really not suicidal... lol.. what r u advertising? I hope ur not dead yet I'd like to touch that... jk... I'm just reading all these comments And realize how dumb I sound. Life is short enough as is... why do we all want to take our own lives. There r people w some real problems and r on their death beds... fighting for their lifes. The only man behind all this suicide is the devil himself... he want to win over our souls before God sends Jesus on the resurrection of this world. Be on ur best before then... wait a lil longer be patient and God will take care of us and do away w all the devil worshippers... love urself before others... call God and he will come... ask for his protection and guidance and understanding and clarity... but always keep in mind the devil hears ur cry and knows ur weaknesses as well. He is the wolf in sheep's clothing...

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  7. Im broke no friends convicted owi felon and i wasnt even driving no i cant get a job my friends say thwy are there for me but no one is in site o took some pills yesterday and got drunk and passed out....i woke up today 28 hours later. It wasnt enough. To do the job. Im looking for a new way. And i dont know what to do. My family says they care but have disowned me all my life

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    1. my name is ricky i live in los angeles...was wondering where u live...i would like to talk to you...... just want to talk...i feel what u feel due to different problems... you can hang up the phone anytime...310 867 9129

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  8. My life has been pretty easy in comparison to a lot of people. I really shouldn't complain. But day by day the stress keeps building. People lying to my face, telling me I'm not worth the shit they scrape off their shoes. I'm 18 and dropping out of college, have no job, no car, and no where to go because my own sister said that if I was stupid enough to drop out of school its up to me to fix the rest of my pathetic life. My boyfriend of a month and a half wants to meet my family who live 11 hours away, and I keep saying no. He says it's stupid how I want to keep my lives apart, and that if I'm so embarrassed of him then maybe we just don't need to be together. I can not deal with this shit anymore. I just want all this stress and pain to go away. Cigarettes helped at first, but I'm broke. Weed helps a LOT but no money. Alcohol is the only thing I have at my disposal- so I sit in my dorm and drink it alone. Nothing makes the pain stop. Nothing can keep my mind from spinning and thinking of all the things going wrong. Of my life spiraling out of control.
    This might be the only time I ever confess my emotions, because for a teenage girl, I hide a lot of shit. My sorry excuse or a life is fading away, leaving an empty space for someone else to fill. My "suffering" will not last much longer, and my body will be buried n the earth along with so many other poor souls who felt as I did- and I shall be at peace.

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    1. Contact me, I have much to tell you. chogue.designs@yahoo.com

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    2. Correction my email is chogue.design@yahoo.com

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    3. Boo hoo...sounds like ur just cry baby u just want attention...ppl won't feel sorry for if u don't atleast try. Life is hard and it will knock u the Fuck down if u let it..everyone has problems some more than others you have to be willing to fight..you have to have the willingness to live it has to come from within you,there's nothing anyone can do for you.u have to decide to be happy just do it.I suggest u move to a poor country in central America or something for a few months so u can have a different perspective on life. You will be surprised how people that have so little, love life and fight hard to live another day..don't be a coward don't give in so easily u got so much u take for granted imagine how many of those ppl wish they had the life u have

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    4. Ahh haa dear... Kk... I just wanted u to know dat i m a guy 21years old living in india.. I had a sister ones who was d only one who loved me.. She died in a accident.. Now there no one besides me. I m a college drop out n my parents dont know about it. My girlfriend doesnt understand me even, she just thinks dat i m a bullshit.. Just keeps on playing wid me as a toy.. I tried all aspects like driving smoking and weeds.. But nothing helped for a long tym. I hv nothing to do accept killing my self... But still i m alive do u know why... I recognised one of my things to do.. I beleve i was born for it.. I help d poor... D needy.. N stand for d weak peoples who need me... I dont know how i m going to spend all my life.., but i m just doing my work n living.. Till i m able to live i will live.. N den i will leave everything.. If u can talk to me den reply me on my id... Its given underneath
      manas202066@gmail.com

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    5. Herson Arteaga, you don't know someone else's pain and can't compare one person's suffering to another, no matter how small it may seem. Some people are born empaths and not only feel their pain, but everyone else’s as well. These people are very sensitive and suffer greatly, so even though their lives may seem fine on the outside, they may feel like they are being tormented and tortured on the inside. Have some compassion for all, or you will receive NONE.

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  9. Beautiful. Life is beautiful, mine has been rough and hell it still is but I soldier on, even when I don't want to. I am here for any that wants to talk, or needs someone, my shoulders are small but strong and I will gladly carry the weight of your world. This is my personal email do not hesitate to use it chogue.designs@yahoo.com. Email me I am always available


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    1. Correction my email is chogue.design@yahoo.com.

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    2. Shocking revelation...

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  12. I have PTSD, w/ anger and depression. I'm not happy and I'm sick and tired of being physically challenged. I'm sick of the pain and the freakazoid glances I get when I do leave the confines of my home. I'm really surprised though, b/c I googled 'how to commit suicide' and I opened the first link I saw, which was this one, and it probably had to be the best article I ever read, when I was this down in the past! I went from seriously wanting to die, then read this page and it distracted my mind, just enough to forget about suicide, even though I was reading about it. There seemed to be "problems" in every mode of suicide that has been done... It was almost comical in a non-patronizing way, and I have to give kudos to the author of this! Thank you very much! I feel like in some small way, you helped me...

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    1. Shocking revelation...

      http://thelastestmoment.blogspot.com/

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  13. Hi all !
    I am 38 years male.
    I am feeling to do subside. But I am trying to fight against it. Now I think I am helpless. Every day and night its going worst and worst. I am thinking to do subside.
    Any good advise ?
    phaneefs@gmail.com

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  14. my gf spoiled my carreer ... i belong to a poor family . my dad while going out of his limit spended lakhs of rupees in my coachings from loans and his insurence policies bt she and her bro jst 1 week before my exam starting torturing me to broke up with my gf and my last preparaion days got spoiled nw wt to do .. i dnt knw .. my father expects that i gng to pass with good marks bt he dnt knw that i gng to fail .. i dnt wanna live i wanna die .. i cnt face my dad on my result day ... i m pursuing C.A.

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    1. gaurav listen to me please don't..Suicide is never a solution. There is no problem so great that it can not be resolved with time and care...

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  15. My family don't like me because im not like there daughter cherished by every one and i have tried so hard but im very very poor in studies but i know to become a successful person i have to study but they don't understand my feelings......They always thinks im a coward and im failed and now its a semester back and i don't know how to face it.....i know a sucide is a waste but for whom i gonna live in this world...:(

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    1. dear when i was an student in my engg life then i becomes failed but i was good in study nd now m engg passedout, suecide is no way and no solution for problems , pass and fail both are the part of ours life so dont waste it u can communicate me on ansikachauhan@gmail.com.

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  17. Shocking revelation...

    http://thelastestmoment.blogspot.com/

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  18. Cant help but feel like my life was big mistake. Am completely lost in the world. Plz tell me y life is worth it

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    1. Your life is a divine gift. You are a gift to the world and to everyone here. You care so much that you feel like a failure or a mistake, but you are perfect just breathing and showing up every day. Acknowledge the courage you have to live one day at a time. You have a purpose, whether you know it or not. Life is worth living when you love yourself in spite of all the negativity and pain.

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    2. to the world, you're someone... to someone, you're the world. just always believe that someone is out to get you.

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  19. im not gonna lie. haha i want to do it but im kind of scared. i read all the different ways and none of them seemed to pleasant. i was really low yesterday and i put my m1a in my mouth, pulled the trigger and the fucker jammed. that was the scariest thing i ever did in my life. when it didn't go off i just cried like a bitch. i hate feeling this way and i hate myself for not caring about how it would impact my kids but when your down and out your down and out

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    1. Jeez that really sucks that the thing jammed. It must have been awful for you in that moment. I wish I had a gun or enough pills to end it all too. I have so much to be thankful for, but everything just feels so difficult and I don't know how to get through each day. I need to work to help my husband support our 3 children, but I ended up taking leave today because I just sit at my desk and stare at my computer... I cant seem to get anything done... I am tired and just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I also feel terrible for not seeming to care about my kids, but I do care about them. I just think they would be better off without me in their lives...

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    2. Man... I hate to laugh but at least u made it that far... I'm just thinking of how scared I am before I attempt something so drastic. I have thought about it since age 16 and never tried it. I'm too scared of what happens next? Where will I go? Will God accept me home or would I go straight to hell. I'm more scared of God than anyone or anything on earth... I hate my life so much and cannot have children so be thankful for ur babies... they will be the only ones in ur life that will show u the unconditional love u need in life just treat them to the best of ur ability and they know the difference...

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  20. i like dance but i cant study it. but one day i got an opportunity to dance in school team for sub district level of school youth fest.i studied the whole dance but at last they told me there is no need of me in that group. i was so passionate , i worked hard and hard but they said no.actually i'm the one who dance well i know that but they wont choose me why? dance is my air and food dance is every thing for me but no one is ready to give a chance. i wanna dance it is my last need please

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    1. u may communicate me on ansikachauhan@gmail.com then i'll tell u dat wat is life nd wat is dance?

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  21. Your English sucks. Stick to Hindi or Tamil or Urdu or whatever the hell it is you normally speak and write.

    By the way, the best way to commit suicide is to go out on the ocean or a large lake in a kayak on a nice beautiful day with a large jug of vodka and a powerful firearm. Maybe take some fruit along to enjoy with the booze. Just keep paddling and drinking and go out until you can't see land. Be sure not take a compass or a map. You will be all alone, drunk and in a wilderness - ideal. Make sure you are so far out that you can't ever get back to land. When the situation becomes hopeless, like you're out of vodka, lean the boat hard to one side or stand up and then shoot yourself. Even if the shot doesn't kill you, you will quickly drown. Best of all, nobody will ever find your body and you will be eaten by fish or sharks instead of rotting away in a moldy casket. Also, many days later when they find your car at the marina, nobody will ever be able to piece it all quite together and so they'll never know if it was intentional or an accident. Brilliant, no?

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    1. hey i actually like the sound of this. i was actually thinking of doing a heroin overdose but am not sure how much to inject and would
      not like to half ass it and wake up brain dead or something. also i have thought about shooting myself but have also heard of just becoming brain dead. i'm thinking if i OD on heroin or shoot myself in the head in the forest where no on usually goes, that should allow sufficient time for me to die. i am not however planning on doing this for another 2 years. i plan to go to peru and hope that ayahuasca will heal me of my mental problems and give me motiation to enjoy life. so i rest my hope in the healing qualities of ayahuasca and though i have never done it before, would like to recommend that anyone thinking about commiting suicide try ayahuasca to purge them of negative parasites in the body and mind, as ayahuasca has been known to cure people of their wish to end their life early. thanks i've enjoyed your posts yet would rather hear more of the ways people legitimately plan to commit suicide. i just wish that suicide wasn't as socially condemned as it is. there should be elixirs sold at the store for people who want to end their life. that seems a bit odd at first, but an ideal place for me to live. if that were the case, i would still wait to drink ayahuasca a few times to see if it helps. ok cheers to life, and especially the afterlife for all the mysteries and glimmers of assured peace it offers :D

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  22. Im 14 years old and i failed school i got kicked from my job My parents dead foster home is annoying and i hate it. F everything!

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    1. i must say can't fail because every successful person is fail one times. My child you don't get loose, you can try again, God bless you.

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    2. dear always remember u still can fix it and suicide is the permanent solution for a temporary problem

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  24. Hi, just a moment back I was searching for the information about business motivational speakers and now I am here. So much information, really well executed blog. This is really informative and I will for sure refer my friends the same. Thanks

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    1. I would think if u were looking for motivational speaking that u would Gabe had more to say if u

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  25. Hi, im 16 almost 17 and i cant take my life anymore. I have a family that puts me down makes me feel.like im a worthless peice of shit that they could careless about. My mom used to be on drugs really bad and left me and my sister on my grandpas porch when i was 11 for her drug addict herion selling boyfriend. My grandpa would get drunk everynight and come yell at me for nothing and abuse me, mentally and emotionally. He would punch me smack me kick me tell me i was a fat no good piece of shit. Untill one day my mom came back saying her boyfriend was in jail and she was pregnant. I eventually moved back in with her in a small two bedroom apartment with her my sister my brother and myself. My little brother became my life. I would do anything for him. My dad was never really in my life. He cared to much about his girlfriend and her daughter, who malested me and my cousin when we were 3/4. I go to school at a school that doesn't give two shits about its students. I try my hardest and its not good enough for anyone. Im always being told do better get better grades ect. I can't take livinf this life anymore. I look at my family and think they wouldnt miss me if i was gone. I climbed into my closet today with a handful of pills crying and sat there from 3 to 6 and noone noticed i was gone. My brother found me though hugged me kissed me and said in his own 3yr old way dont cry i love you and took my water so i couldnt take the pills. I want to end my life so bad but everytime i start to it i think of my little brother and stop myself. I need someone to talk to that would care. I cant hold on much longer. Soon im going to go overboard and i just dont want my brother there to see it.

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    1. can talk to me, do you have facebook? xxx

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    2. add me if yes Lauren Emily Walters area is Kingston Upon Thames. Profile pic is me with a hat on x

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    3. Email me.. lets talk youngster, ur smart enough to know ur little brother shouldn't see this, that makes u smart enough to know how to better yourself. Your going to be just fine. I know it.

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  27. I want to die, I've felt this since I was 17. I felt that I am a loser, someone who has tried several times but never succeeded. I was able to recover when I met my girlfriend who is now my wife. We've been together for 11 years and only got married several months ago. I'm 33 and jobless, I wanted to do something but as usual I fail. I always fail. The one who I thought will be there for me has now told me that she will leave me. I have nothing that I think this life can still offer me. Hopefully, when everything else fails. I will have the courage to end this miserable and cruel life.

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    1. I recommend that you know your options before you make up your mind. I am a demonolator by profession. this means that I summon Demons on behalf of people who need their help. When problems cannot be solved naturally, we can resort to supernatural, mystic means to get what we want, trust me on this, it works, am 30 years deep in this business. Let me know if you are interested in getting your case to the temple. Email me: cliff.mystic@gmail.com, cliff.mystic@yahoo.com

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    2. Warning _ Please investigate people that ask you money for their services before accepting or sending them any money!!! there are people who prey on your vulnerability and will left you in an even worst situation

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  28. i can't take any more of anything in this world, i don't think that cuting myself well change any of tha, im a goth. I want to end all these as soon as possible but i can't just do it. i need some money and some pills. . . this has to been done soon. there is no hope for me .

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  29. I am 36 and have nothingin my life the only good thing I have done i my wonderful children who never want to se me they want to stay at their dads. I have screwed up my life beyond repair have nothing and am so miseriable. The world would be better without me so amm going to end it all.

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    1. Hey this is ur cousin and I'm sorry u feel down. But just know ur not the only one... man I'm glad I read this long enough to know ur in need of some help.. me too. But reading these make me think about how we all sound. I hope u get this and please talk to me. I'm in need of help my damn self maybe we can be here for eachother.

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  30. I've been married for over 10years and within a few months I found our my wife is in love with another man. I was angry, and I wanted to hurt her so much. And I could have and yet I still lover her, and I understand some how the marriage was over. Now I just want to die, and let her live her life. Considering the age difference me being 50 and she is 32. I only wish somehow that others that look at this understand why I'm doing this. Not out of hate, nor anger. I"m not working and until now been going to school to get a degree. I did get to see most of my sons life, I'm sure he will be happy , more happy with his mother than with me. In the end this is a great site, for people to give the last thing on their mind before seeing that last spark.

    I lost so much, and I never knew pain like this would happen to anyone, but I now know what I lost.

    Thank you!
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    1. I have been with my husband for 14 years and married for 12. A week ago he confirmed my worst fear, he has been having an affair which has hurt me so badly as up until very recently i trusted him implicitly. This has been a terrible week of self doubt and terrible pain but we decided that we would work it out. Today i noticed him behaving kindve off just not himself, when i questioned him about it he finally admitted that he is in love with her. I want to die, i dont really have anything to live for.
      I understand just how you feel and agree that this is the way out.
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  31. I am a total screw up. I should have been killed at birth. My parents still refer to me as their "mistake". I am 53 years old, college educated but yet still unemployed after many months in spite of a 27 year career and can't seem to find work that I can do at my age. I have learned that a college degree itself doesn't always translate into a job. I have no marketable skills. I guess I finally turned out to be the family screw up I was always said to be.

    Forgive me Jesus for what I am about to do right now.

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  32. i am toatally lost...i dnt feel any point in living...
    my parentz wonta allow me to do thing i do..they dnt really care abt me... all they do is discourage me...tl me tat im juz a piece f crap... al my lyf im here thngz lik it wuld hav been beetr if i wasnt born..i never had a happy live..nobdy really undrstandz me...i dnt find any point in living..... i wanna get rid frm all dis... i wannaa die.......................

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    1. If you don?t create your destiny, you will have your fate inflicted upon you.

      Dream as if you will live for ever, live as if you?ll die today.

      You never get a second chance to make the first impression.

      Keep your head and heart in the right direction and you will never have to worry about your feet.

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    2. Dude life sucks & is hard at times , believe me I know. I'm not pretending to know your situation at all, but I'm sure their is something you enjoy ans dreams that you dream in ur head. Find yourself! Take the negative out of ur life, don't let anyone tell u that u can't do something. I'm sure u have heard it all. All the speaches, the lectures, the pats on the back. Trust me I don't have the best life nor am I the happiest I can be by no means. Ur post reminds me of my son is why I'm responding to it. He has been fucking up for the bast couple of years and has gotton worse. I love him and I know he can turn things around. But he keeps digging himself deeper and taking the easy road and just plane been lazy and not taking care of the things he should be at his age. Its not to late for u to be happy! Make steps to do it. Its not an over night 1 week or even a month thing. Its going to take some time bro! Are u strong enough to do it? I think u are...

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  33. "LIFEISNOWHERE" read this again..... Life means the way you look........

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  34. I owe ten thousand dollars ($10,000,00).I hve no one to turn on now.Death is my only option.I dnt wana die but so much pressure on me.Maybe someone here has money but ain't happy makin him want to kill himself.Kindly help me pay my debt so i can live on.noblepac@yahoo.com.help me.

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    1. i think we can help each other my friend, i can gave $10,000,00 + 5,000 bonus if u are the one that will end my fucking life. i planned it many times before but i cant. can u help me?

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    2. Noble Makaveli, I can help you raise such amount. Trust me even the Demons are simply laughing because you want to do such extreme act because of $10,000. I am a demonolator by profession, I summon Demons to help people. Am so positive about your case because I've done it for over 8 persons. Contact me: cliff.mystic@gmail.com, cliff.mystic@yahoo.com

      rico de guzman, do mail me to consider your options before you make up your mind OK!

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  35. It's funny when I want to die even if everything is relatively good.. I don't know why but everything seems pointless. I don't think I'm ready to die yet but I'm scared of my thoughts because they are becoming more and more crazy and depressive.. I just don't get it.. Why am i not happy?.. When I actually have everything a person would want to have... Parents, loving boyfriend, cute dog, good grades in school, talent for drawing and playing the piano... I just can't find an answer.. I haven't been really happy since I was 7 or 8... And now I'm only 18. If the life is only going to get worse, what is the point of living... I'm too scared to suicide but maybe I shouldn't be? What is life going to bring me if I don't end it now? More pain, more black and gray? It's like I can't even see colours anymore... This life is so disgusting.. And the worst thing is that I don't know why. Maybe I'm just a mistake. Mistakes should be erased

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  36. maaaro jis jis ne marna hai main b ap k sath hoon maza nahin raha zindigi yaaar ab mout ka b maza chaknay ka dil kar raha hai

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  37. I came to waking this morning writing suicide notes to the few I still know and love, my end is near. I cannot move. the depression and anxiety is too overwhelming, now I feel numb with my determination to just say good-bye. clear the space and put an end to the screaming in my head

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  38. Ahh haa dear... Kk... I just wanted u to know dat i m a guy 21years old living in india.. I had a sister ones who was d only one who loved me.. She died in a accident.. Now there no one besides me. I m a college drop out n my parents dont know about it. My girlfriend doesnt understand me even, she just thinks dat i m a bullshit.. Just keeps on playing wid me as a toy.. I tried all aspects like drinking g smoking and weeds.. But nothing helped for a long tym. I hv nothing to do accept killing my self... But still i m alive do u know why... I recognised one of my things to do.. I beleve i was born for it.. I help d poor... D needy.. N stand for d weak peoples who need me... I dont know how i m going to spend all my life.., but i m just doing my work n living.. Till i m able to live i will live.. N den i will leave everything.. If u can talk to me den reply me on my id... Its given underneath
    manas202066@gmail.com

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  39. Well, my wife and I are going to commit suicide tonight. We live in the UK, and have had enough of this sick fucked up world where the poor get blamed and pay for the mistakes of the wealthy. The UK had a Labour government that gave loads of money (benefits) to junkies, and the work shy. Now we have the Conservatives, who have made it an impossible nightmare by blaming everyone else, except for the greedy MP's who take...take...take and want more! We haven't decided on a method yet, but it is a guarantee it will be tonight (1st December 2012).

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  40. hi ashish i am the girl who is living with all odds in life n im not that much brave to kill my self so i am everyday fighting with al odds my life sucks now and today i found your blog... but i am really sorry i cant assure u that i wont kill my self... i am so sorry i m helpless i really dont wanna do this but iam so sorry..........

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    1. Hey rajvi, I don't know what odds u hv in ur life, but I can definitely tell you, you hv the ability to withstand with this. But you just want to give a last try to your life...

      Best of luck...

      If you need me as a friend, my email id is nilesh350@gmail.com

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  41. Hey friends, I listened all of you...

    Only one solution you all needed...

    You know what?

    A friend, who can listen you, talk to you, entertain you...

    Friend's words are more powerful weapons in this situation.

    So buddies, go and talk with someone, more you talk more u will feel relaxed.

    If you are not getting any one like to talk... There are many websites to talk with friends, where you can meet new peoples, talk with them, share with them, listen to them... They can be your best friends...

    One of the website is: omegle.com

    Or you can be friend of mine, I would like to be best friends of yours,
    My name is nilesh gorivale, you can find me on facebook. I works at Emerson. Lives in India.
    Before a year ago I also was thinking like you, was ready to terminate my life. But I changed my mind, now I am trying to make others happy. If you will change your mind after reading this, then I will accomplish my aim. So plz give a last try to your life and see you will be happy forever...


    Nilesh gorivale

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    1. From last 3 weeks i dont speak even single word to any one bcz i dont have friends im alone life is like hell what worse then this ;(

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  42. I really can't take it anymore. 10 years of battling acne BAD, very bad acne. My face, back of my neck, my back, chest. I remember my 1 st two yrs of high school I would get dropped off by my mom at school and I would just walk right out of school and go wait at a park till school was out. It was until 11th grade that I dropped out since my mom knew it wasn't gonna change. Now I'm almost 21 and I'm still that same kid working at mcdonalds with like 10 pimples on the back of his neck. BIG PIMPLES, everywhere. Im disgusted by my skin. I'm lonely.People just don't understand how this has fucked with me my whole life... I see a couple stories that to be honest. Suicide is the best option for us. But if ur killing yourself over money,women, or some dumb shit like that ur a dumbfuck.

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    1. Because of zits really? Are we all on here looking for an easy way out of this pathetic Life or could it be simple , commonalities , compassion, realization.. Life ! It is what it is ..can we make it better ? Sure .. Have we tried ? I have .. Depression PTSD IS SERIOUS THO .. It takes lives As we choose to give up. Lets not belittle one another .. Suicide is real.My beautiful cousin jumped off a bridge after sexual abuse haunted her life.. Her husband abused her & I had just received her support after escaping a violent relationship. She was alone , I want to join her 6 yrs later .

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    2. Give it some time! I have seen such cases clear up completely... This is something that has to do with the age you are..(15-25) We all have certain struggles in life, the adversity you are enduring now will make you a much more resilient and understand and empowered person later in life. I promise.. You will have more happiness than you ever dreamed if you just work on your self. Learn to be independent and self-sufficient. Find people, friends,, who dont care about such superficial nonsense and love you for who you ARE,, but most importantly, even if these friends dont materialize at the moment, Love yourself. Please, love yourself., Do things that help others. People need you, they are counting on you and they will love you, if you love yourself, BE PASSIONATE!!!

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  43. I have read all the posts, and too be quite honest, I think my actions are set in stone. 27 years of pain, and to see that it can only get worse, eases the guilt of decisions that are soon to be made. Im 27, no friends, barely any family, and I have lost everything I have ever loved. Im done, I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE! I dont want to wake up knowing the pain will never sucide, and no matter my perseverance, I cant get ahead in anything. I know shit can always get worse, but why do I have to tell myself that to reassure anything? Life isnt suppose to be like this, and all I ever wanted was happiness, was that too much to ask? Maybe my mom was suppose to get an abortion, maybe I should have taken my life years ago, maybe this has all been just a nightmare,and the only way to wake up is to end this reality. I dont know, and im tired of all the questioning. I am not a bad person by any means, and ever since I was a baby, Ive had too much love to give. This is it, I dont see why even typing this is necessary, maybe sharing my story will prevent others from experiencing the same circumstances I have dealt with, and maybe prevent others from making the decision I have. Either way, love, happiness, and respect are only things experienced through television and movies. I wish things would have been different, and I wish I didnt have to go through with this, but truly has become a realization that this is my only options left.

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  44. Hi i know its the bad thing i am not strong to face things fed up wid life no friends no work no studies unlucky for every one i try alot but im scared if i will fail to die then what happen just want to die

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  45. I commit but every time i fail i dont know what to do now plz help me plzzz now i have one option left drown

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  46. I am in grade 5... I know im young... But i have a crush on this guy who i think does not like me... People made fun of me, i knew i couldnt trust the guy who told the boys, im embarassed and i tried to commit suicide for a long time but it never works... What is the painless way?

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      You have nothing to be embarrassed about. Have you asked your family for help yet? LJ in the USA (50 year old suicide survivor)

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  47. hi ashish,iam seriuosly thinking about suicide as all my family are gone and i have just lost my bestiest friend two weeks ago.i just think it would be best if i went aswell

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    1. Paul, I'm sure your best friend would tell you that is a bad idea. What would you say to someone who confessed similar intentions?

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  48. WHEN YOU FINALLY TRUST YOURSELF, YOU WILL KNOW HOW TO LIVE" "WE MAKE A LIVING BY WHAT WE GET;WE MAKE A LIFE BY WHAT WE GIVE"

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  49. Idk where to start... I'm 22 year old man who made terrible decions within the last 4 years of my life. I don't have a criminal record yet I still can't find another job. I don't have any money and no car. Sometimes I'll wake up saying "this will be the day my life changes," yet it never does. I use to think ppl who commit suicide were cowards and I just never felt petty for any of them... I'm here to say I'm sorry to those who never had any1 to talk them out of it and feel awful on how my views on suicide were. I know understand how it feels when you feel lonely on the inside yet on the outside you act like everythings okay. My life is so depressing now and it honestly is hard not to jump infront of a train. To be honest the only thing that keeps me from killing myself is the fact that I am scared that God won't accept me in heaven if I do so. I never imagined that this could happen to me and I just want to say to everyone that we have to keep fighting and keep our hopes alive. Reading everybodys situation was honestly one of the touching things that ever happened to me in my life. Bless your souls and if you guys promise to keep hope alive, I will do the same. Everyone of us deserve to be happy or God would've taken our lives . If any1 wants to talk email me bradcaraballo@gmail.com

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  50. Im 45, I wanted to be a good person,from my heart from childhood, and I wish to get good name from the world, but i failed in my task. Unfortunatly in my past i didn't fullfill any of my wish like to be good person. I am not a good son to my parents, good brother to my sisters, good friend to my friends, good relative to my relatives, good husband to my wife.. Still I m trying only.. the environment and my bad luck forced me to show myself as a badperson, with intention or from my heart i m not commiting mistakes or crime but it is happening, i wanted to be a good person in all means.. but everything went wrong.. I am totally depressed, i dont want live in the world, i m praying god to help me to take my soul as early as possible and forgive me. atleast i want to take good name in next birth if it is..

    anytime i die

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  51. I don't want to live, I want to die. But till now I am living only for my daughter.

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  52. I wish this post didn't make such a mockery of trying to escape peoples' pain.

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  54. There are a number of completely painless ways to commit suicide. But emotional distress, financial and unsuccessful interpersonal relationships, are NOT a good enough reason to end your life! Not even close. Belive it or not we must learn to be thankful for emotional pain! AT least we feel something..that we feel it strongly is special.. Its driving us toward something beautiful: self-liberation. Pain is our heart's way of telling us that we need a change. It starts by changing our own attitude, changing how we look at things. By letting go and trying to appreciate what little you do have. Making goals, helping others and loving yourself. If you really hate yourself then you're in for a wonderful surprise: you dont really exist the way you perceive yourself... these things that was go through are but states we pass through. If anyone is really physically in pain or dying from a disease and your quality of life has become unbearable,, then there are options (Like the book: Final Exit) -anyone who feels lonely and wants just a penpal with a different perspective than most, pls feel free to write me at: ha.pakal@yahoo.com
    love to all.

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  55. I really want to die Srsly!! After reading the cutting wrist method I am a little afraid. Pls tell me a method to die painlessly

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  56. i'm tired of living a betrayed and dull life...i cant take it anymore...i tried a lot to stop thinking about my past...but whenever something wrong happens to me in present all the sad parts... comes in front..people say parents are the only person who will be with you in your bad times...i agree...but have you ever thought why do they do so..some love their children...but in my case i dont think so..since i was i child no one loved me..neither my close relatives..but as i grew up suddenly their love for me showed up..i'll tell you this world is only for people who are selfish...thats it....there is no space for people who are kind..

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  57. I seem trapped in a dream...I watch, immobile, as others move past. No motivation, passion....caught in stasis...or simply rotting.... I am already dead.

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  58. i am 60 worked most of my life. my children took everything i ever had then threw me away. they never wanted for anything growing up. but no room in their life for me now that im old. i have tried pills many times just wake up with dam headache. but i am ready to go if i can find a way. my youngest child has yelled in public im dead to him so why not accomodate him at least he will be happy.

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  59. I am not depressed. I realize my life has been far better than many, and worse off than others. I am just tired. As a 57YO male, it is difficult to find work and my new wife just took half of everything I have (including my family home. Does that bother me? Sure, but I am not sad about it, just tired. My view is there are 1) too many people on the planet, 2) our society is geared towards young productive people and I am just TIRED.

    So the way for me to do it is to just go away from my family so there is no mess for them to worry about. Tribes over the centuries have done this when people were too old to contribute, they just went into the forest or jungle. Access to a little nitrogen gas and a heavy duty bad and your done in 15 minutes. You pass out from the lack of oxygen, but don't get the CO2 panic. Just go to sleep. (Just be sure no one can find you because if you wake up after 6 minutes you will be alive, but severely brain damaged. So take care.

    Life has been challenging, but also very good to me. I just think it is time to leave this place for the next generation. Sure you will cause some pain for loved ones, and I sure as heck hope there isn't a god or even quantum consciousness, a question that can never be answered. But life goes on. I have survived the loss of two brothers and a wife. I was sad, but moved on. So time to tie up those loose ends, make sure I leave no unanswered questions with my kids and just ride of into the sunset.

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    1. I'm so tired of fighting and I'm here to read other people's stories and it's sad to no we all feel alone and desperate . I'm getting sadder byvthe day and itsvso hard to say I'm really in trouble and when I do try and tell my partner he just gets angry with me. It's almost as if he's so selfish and I'm crying out for help so much but he can't see either because he does not want to or he is just about him . He says it's me and is but I feel so alone so scared and all I want is help But I should leave him as I'm being made to feel guilty for being me. I'm not perfect I'm desperate thats why I'm on here. I'm crying out for help only I have no voice and every day I think about ending it . I wish someone would listen to me help me and help me feel like I'm bot worthless . Good luck everyone I hope you all get better and find someone to help you

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  61. You can't expect anyone to help you or hold your hand the any of this . They have there own lives and who am I to bring them further down . I can't do this any more I'm drowning I feel as tho I'm drowning so when I'm gone maybe someone will think dam I should have help been nicer given her support. I have been having a break down for months now and altho people know about it no one reall seems to care so why am i here. Just going to by sleeping pills on line . The pain can't be worse than living this v sad live I'm tired of fighting and being alone I'm not strong any more I'm sooooo tired. I need to be held and helped to stand up I'm tired of fighting.

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  62. So many problems and I can't even help myself. I have had medical problems for months and am afraid I am going to lose my home. I get short term disability from work but I am fighting to get paid. It has been 3 months with no income. My husband was in a car accident earlier this year and is still recovering so it was all dependent upon me. Now my mom's husband has left her and she can't afford to live in her house so she wants to move in with me. I am months behind on everything and things are going to be shut off soon. I just want out of this world. I know my insurance policies cover suicide so they will be taken care of at least when I go. I am so tired. I just don't think I was meant for this life anyways.

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  63. Dnt knw wats wrng wth me... bt hve lost all hopes.... jst wanna die dats it... pls n kindly help me to end ma life...n suggest me best way to die n pls don't motivate me... "life is nice" dis was my password for all ma email id's bt recently i hve made sme chngs in it... "is life nice?" Hahaha.. good one na... i knw my english sucks bt i cnt help it... bhavnaonko samjo yaar:-) frnds...u kmw what google serch ne b dhoka de diya... again hopeles...! Itna motivate kar diye ki agle do saal to ab jina hi padega... dnt laugh... was serching for end ma life n no want to spend some more life... bt realy need help to overcome dis sucide thoughts... pls help..

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  64. I came here tonight looking for a way to end it as my last 2 attempts were epic failures, and I want to thank all of yiu be wise had I not read your posts I'd probably be trying again tonight... but have decided to wait. Few more days, I figure I'm already a part of the walking dead so what's a few more days gonna hurt...
    :-)

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  66. Tonight is the night i'm going to commit suicide. i came on here to find the easiest way. I lost my kids because their dad keeps calling dcf on me with false allegations. tomorrow is Christmas and i can't spend it with them. Their dad and grandparents laughs at me when they know i'm hurting. i can't live my life without my kids. i will see them in another life time. if they ever.read this.. I LOVE YOU BUT I CAN'T BEAR THIS PAIN ANYMORE.

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  67. I lost my dad to suicide when I was 21 now I have just lost me mum too soon.

    Can't see the point in going on, in too much pain.

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  68. dear freindz my name is kishore age-25 from india, i hav gone through many stories here and i thought writing my miserable one, i led a life of rich kid i had many frnz i used to throw parties daily at late evenings life was so good, i was into forex trading and i used to make money like anything so everything was going fine i used to train ppl also whoever were intrested in learning foreign currency trading,but every good time as to end, and my time came i met a woman who was from a fraud company i invested all the hard earned money of mine in buying the franchise which she told me of her company promising that we can make money in crores i trusted her so much and made a debt of 50000$ along with my own capital of 40000$ and bought a franchise. but i came to know later that it was a fraud, i complained police and nothing could help me, i sold all my immovable assets and hav cleared around 45000$ debt, and i dont own anything now, i die for even a dollar a day, my frnz who use to be with me hav left me long ago and make fun of me, my parents r suffering bcos of my i hav ruined everything and that too in the name of trust, i dont want to live anymre, im advicing u all not to trust ppl.

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  69. guys, I came here for the same reason you did I guess... I've done so many stupid things I can't even start :( life is bitter, black and white all I want to do is suicide but I just don't know why, It's been like this since 2004, that's 8 years from now, I used to take medicine but not anymore all it did was "hide" the pain :( I want to share my story with you guys if I ever commit suicide.. http://kamoore80.blogspot.com/2012/12/hatred-and-suicide.html

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  70. I am sure no one will really read this, but I guess I just want it down somewhere how I am feeling. I am 38 years old and have no reason at all to continue with life. Due to disabilities my future is very bleak, and no hope in sight of it ever being able to get better. In the last 2 years I have lost everything that has ever meant anything to me. Due to lies from my own daughter and my ex husband I have lost all my children, and am not able to see them. My own mother had a hand in taking my home of 14 years from me 2 weeks after i lose my kids, I lost all my pets and belongings at that time. My now husband has become a severe alcoholic, and at the moment I am currently locked in a spare room to stay away from him. I am constantly being told how everything bad that happens is my fault, and everyone in town believes me to be a drug addict, one of the lies told in court about me, and the reason I am unable to see my babies. There simply isn't any reason for me to be here any longer. Why to cause more problems? I can't. I am of no use to anyone, just taking up space day in and day out. Living in constant pain both physical and emotional. I have decided on a day, I have to wait until my ssd check comes so I can make sure to take care of things around here first, and my husband will have time before the next month to find a cheaper apt that he could afford. Sorry I shouldn't have made this so long.

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    1. Angela....it is not necessary...things for which we are sure about will likely to occur as the same....you weren't sure about any1 wud even read this...like-ways how can you be sure about the moments yet to come...
      Believe Angela.....believe in the moments to come...believe in the future which could unfold loads Joy for you...moments change Angela...sumtimes late...and when it'll change for you..all that pain you've been livin in...wud not matter....
      What will most matter...will be Life..and its beauty.....
      And don't think that this speaker doesn't have problems...every1 does...

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  71. iam 15 years old and already been through so much pain in life i have lost mum 2 grandmas a grandad have no familly left but dad and brother i have been raped beaten up bullied i have no freinds or familly and i am currently pregnant my dad cannot support us anymore and is mentally tired , i just want to be happy and after thinking about it ive realised i do want to do suicide . can you please tell me the easiest way

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  72. I can go on for another year knowing that I'm a failure.... 25, still in college and I can not see a future for myself. I have tried to call out for help because I am afraid to just ask for it and my pleas have fallen on the hard of hearing. I am so lonely and am tired on playing this shitty game of life.

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    1. Felicia....Life is never a Game...it cant be played...just Live it...
      At times....we find ourselves in moments of mere sorrow and pain...but it doesn't mean...tht Life ain't worth Livin...live to see what and how much it can deliver you in terms of joy and hapiness...and believe me if u die at ur will 2day..then all that joyful moments destined yet to come in your Life will die too....So, dont think of dying...instead..think of ways via which you can illuminate yourself...and shine out in Life...Find Love..live it..distribute it to others....and Live to see..how the story ends...

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  73. Well I am 40'and my birthday is tomorrow. I figure my first day in 41 years ago will be the day out. I pray God will forgive me along with family and friends ninhave everything set up to make it happen nineteen rented an apartment in an adjacent county that no one knows about specifically for this purpose. All papers in order now it just ticking away. Just wish I had a fellow man my age or a I've just to talk to nit is not that your looking for an answer it is just having someone that won't judge and seems liked they care. My father committed suicide when I was a baby and never had a dad. I need a dad more than ever right now. I guess it is too late. I'm sorry to all those I know along with those I don't know. My God Bless us all nease say a prayer for me.

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  75. hii every1 my life is a drama where i get everything.. but the thing is that i dont get my love i am getting failed in every situation i want to commit sucide so that no1 gets like this problem ever and never plz say me the way to get sucide.. :(

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  76. Andy williams

    I guess this is my last good bye.. I borrowed money off the wrong kind of people..to help my legitimate company..theni got ripped of by a company in china.. It has ruined my life... I have a baby on the way but no possesions left ..or home ...and an unhappy partner.. Im embarrassed and ashamed..the police cant help me.. Until something has happened to me... In which case will be to late anyway.. I now owe £20000 out and i cant get help...i hope someone reads this from my family.. I didnt want to be a coward but i have no choice

    Andy manchester uk

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  77. I have been in trouble with the law since I was 8 years old and I am now 25. I got mixed in with the wrong people and they stole about 80,000 dollars from a lady and since I was with them I got charged as well. I haven't been on probation for more than a few weeks before I stole a credit card and used it to make a purchase for my kids cause I don't have a job and wanted to get them something nice for Christmas. Now I am looking at going to prison for 20 years and my newest son is not even 6 months old yet. I don't wanna end my life but the bad choices I've made it would be worth it. I'm tired of being homeless I can't do anything for myself let alone eat anything. I work a dead end job every paycheck I make goes to my kids and probation. I have thought about every possible way even putting my head in the microwave and turning it on. I tried to do the old hair dyer and bathtub incident and it just blew the fuse and gave me a tiny shock. My wife had been cheating on me the first day I met her and didn't find out until I divorced her. I still wonder if the child is mine but won't get the test done cause I have been taking care of him since he was born and don't wanna be broken if he is not mine. I'm about to do something stupid but as for me I can't be saved.

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  78. I've had a pretty hard upbringing my dad was physically abusive toward me because I was a bit of a pest but I would say beating on me with what ever weapons he could find and tying me up by my hands in a dairy cooler for hours is not a way to punish your child and when I got a bit older I rebelled and ran away only to meet a man and he abused me which sent me on a downward spiral I was put into state care but I ran away and tried to self harm inhale gas and chrome and try to jump in front of trains I ended up in secure welfare (where kids go if they try to harm or kill themselves) but I would end up back in there a day later I started smoking weed at 10 and was doing hard drugs by 13 I started geting into trouble and ended up in juvenile justice and then jail when I got older I met a girl when I got out she was the only person I had a real relationship with mainly because of lack of confidence and I'm not tall and good looking I was with her for 3 years on and off but she gave me the "I have to go away" story on several occasions but I got the feeling she was cheating on me because I couldn't please her in bed I was already suffering from depression and stress from the physical and sexual abuse and then I went even deeper into depression and felt lonely and 5 years later I still haven't got a girlfriend I've tried and keep getting rejected and laughed at I'm such a faliure at everything I'm ugly no woman wants me Im worthless I haven't got many friends the friends I do have are in a relationship have kids or are going to have kids and I feel like I'm the odd one out my family hates me and couldn't give a f$@# about me I can't get a job I don't want to live any more I'm sick of living like this I want to die

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  79. life is beautiful untill n unless v make ourself worth to live on this earth.i haven't done any such thing to live. ve completed my engineering in ece. no job, family members(30 ppl) hates me for not accepting to get married. i'm depressed.i cant go out n speak to ppl bcoz they will ask me, did u get de job? still at home?. its humiliating. day by day my confidence n strenght is lagging. ve become useless to everyone. now i dont think i can make my life sucessful n help my family.m good for nothing.i think its better to die than to depend on others. this could be de best help i can do to my family.

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    1. The Best help...wud be to stay alive....and w8 for the time to change for you...one thng i surely can say...your death will not cost them ny help in ny manner...only will it cost them more miseries, sorrow and pain....
      I knw....at this time....you will be unable to find anything worth interesting....your confidence...your interests...continue 2 fall...but try to speak to people around you...build your social Life a bit...do not worry for how things will carry out...coz a big part of Negativity is Worry...
      Try to do things of your interests for a while...don't mark sum1's words or even Listen to sum1 apart frm ur cls1s...Soon, your confidence will rise...you will feel better..and you will find sumtng..sumtng good to cheer about..

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  80. To ALL who post...that der Life ain't worth Living.....
    Life is a portrait...and the design it holds is nothing but the moments we Live...which includes both Joy and Sorrow...and the color...is nothing but mixture of our moods, feelings and thoughts.....
    Do not leave it incomplete....Live it...Complete it...for others....to admire it....and believe me...you will find..lots of admires.......

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  81. If its a mixture den very much fine.. But I am born Sin don even have peace of 0.1%. I am feeling very sad as i am born girl.. my parents don hav any one to take care apart from me... I am married n inlaws are narrow minded my mom is suffering she is not allowing me to meet my mom.my husband is innocent that he wont support any one.So I hav decided to divorce him... But this is not the solution.. I found solution that I should die...I don want to live in this bloody world.

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  82. Thank you for this article. I've been very mentally tired lately. And at times I would just think "Fuck this". But at least I know I should keep my strength and stop myself from thinking stupid thoughts. Although, tonight was different, I couldn't stop thinking "Just get it done and over with"....then I found your page. So, thank you very much. There are so much more in this world that I don't know about and I won't let anyone make me miss out on those wonderful things.

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  83. I wish I had some big reason to actually commit suicide. I have tried a few times but WHY? always seems to be the reason why i try and talk myself out of it. I mean watching friends around me get hurt, about 10 thousand in debt when I am only 23 thanks to college and having my appendix removed, hurting people I love, watching habitats get destroyed, people murdered. Our population grows while animal population and our environment gets smaller. I drove through town and saw 3 separate groups of people arguing on the streets. I saw a homeless man almost get hit by a bus from not paying attention. I mean this world is cruel and I feel like if I am already contemplating suicide with a good education, a loving girlfriend, a decent job, and good friends, then what will happen if a few of those are taken away? Surely I wont feel good about it. Countless have died in wars throughout history to achieve what? More territory? A treaty that lasts for a small while? I just dislike life in general. Too many shootings, too many people complaining about government over iPhones and touch screens. Its like I don't really enjoy anything anymore anyways. I haven't had sex in 7 months and I am ok with that. There just isn't any desire to. I just don't know what the point is anymore. My religion just brings me down more. I just wish that I didn't have so many people in my life. I want to die but I don't want to be selfish about it. Why do I have to wait until I am old and my body is in pain before dying? It seems pointless.

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  84. i wanna end my life!
    and i am now rational... breathing is painful to me..
    i and my gf is getting marry soon but now due to disputes she and my mum are having now, she's totally ignoring me! i dunno what i can do now..
    i feel the bleeding pain in my heart!

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  85. i wana die plz help me i really wana die
    nobody loves me i am pain for everyone
    for my family and for my friends
    and if i am pain for all the people around me then i have no right to live
    Boys just love me for my body not bcuz who i am
    i just dont want to live here anymore

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    1. I love you, kAnXa FaTiMa. Really I do.

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  86. i truly cant take it anymore. I'm literally only 22 years old. i grew up with divorced parents always making me choose which side i was on. (since the age of 3) i was forced to go to my step grandparents house where i was molested by my step grandfather. when i tried telling my family they didn't believe me, to this day that side of my family does not believe me. Ive been through physical and mental abuse throughout my childhood. i got married at the age of 19, got pregnant. my marriage failed that very same year, all because my husband thought drugs were more important then his family. in that relationship, (after we were married mind you) he abused me mentally, putting me down saying hes not attracted to me anymore and saying our child wasn't his. i tried and tried to keep him involved with our son but he wasn't and still hasn't been despite what he kept saying. i struggled and struggled to do be a single mother and i truly tried my hardest to do so and i couldn't have my son suffer while i struggled to make it for both of us. i knew he deserved so much more, even though i loved him and still do very much. i thought long and hard on the decision to do a temporary guardianship with someone, then i thought of my aunt and uncle who are unable to have children. it had been doing very well. to try and make a new start for my son and i, i moved away but still came to visit every few months (so as much as i possibly could afford and as much time as i was able to get off) when this happened though there always was something that came up with my aunt and uncle and i was only able to see him once every-time i came to visit which seemed very odd to me but i always gave them the benefit of the doubt. things weren't going so well for me where i moved so i really started to get to thinking about what was best for my son. in this process i chose to give my aunt and uncle full custody, only because i saw how well he was growing and he had someone who could stay home with him. he was learning sign language and Spanish and just growing so well. i knew it was right at the time, but when it came down for the time at court something in my gut told me i shouldn't go through with it. instead of following my gut i went with what everyone told me was best. i tried to cross all my T's and dot all my I's and i thought i had until just this morning i found out through facebook they were changing his name completely when they promised me they would keep his first name and he would still know that i was his real mom. i feel so betrayed and i feel like i was stabbed both in my back but most of all in my heart. the real fucked up part about it is that they were keeping it from all of us, (my family and i) that the whole time they have had him they have been calling him by a different name, even when it was just a temporary thing!!!! why are people so cruel and fucked up and only are looking out for their best interest when all i wanted was the best interest for my son, MY SON!!!! i truly feel i have lost everything and i am completely alone in this world. i tried calling my mother for support and all she could say to me was i am not going to call them and risk not getting to see him. that made me feel like i had no one not a single person left in my life who cares. i have no support here, literally no friends. i have been getting more and more depressed the longer Ive been here and its only been a year. i am truly not the same person i was even 2 years ago, i am just a body, nothing left inside, just an empty cavity. i have been contemplating suicide now for about 4 1/2-5 months now and this is my last straw, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE, I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR ANYMORE!!!!! IVE LOST THE ONE THING THAT HAS KEPT ME WISHFUL AND ANY GLIMMER OF HOPE AND I NOW HAVE LOST IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is my plea for help, anyone please help me. i don't know what to do anymore....... i don't know how this works but here is my email please contact me ASAP!!!!!! firefly208.605@gmail.com my name is ashley

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    1. I think u should give yourself a chance to live. bcoz wat if ur sons needs u after some time. wat if ur son can feel happy only in the presence of u. only a parent can make his/her child happy. u just think now they ve changed his name for there cause. wen ur reaches 15years of age he may think about his parents. so please dont let ur son feel miserable abt life.

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  87. Alright Everyone, Here is the Truth. The truth of this suicide matter is that people who want to and have committed suicide KNOW the TRUTH. There is NO HOPE! It's a word that people and Religion's use to basically blow sunshine up your ass. The Truth is nobody really care's if you live or die, they only care for themselve's. Friend's and family and associate's are lying to you when they say they care or that they love you, they don't! Life is meaningless and all people are shallow, heartless beast's that are out to destroy everything that you thought you valued. Religous people can be the worst offender's, they speak of hope and faith, seriously do these thing's pay the rent or put food on the table? NO! It's Money that does that and if you don't have Money, you don't have anything. Look really hard at the homeless for example, there is not one individual or organization that really want's to help them. Here are some hard thing's to think about. If it sound's too good to be true, it generally is. Money is what make's the world go round. People do judge you on your appearance, that mean's where you live, the car you drive etc..... People will say they care but when you say that you need money, they sing a differant tune and these are the people who say to you don't worry what other people think, Their existabce is based completely on what other people think. Everyone on this planet IS out to screw you over and take whatever shred of dignity you may have left. Now as you get Older thing's become worse, then you have entire industries preying on you, Insurance Companies, Bank's, Retailer's and even your own Government, they All put the squeeze on you, even if your living in a cardboard box. Hope, Faith, Love, friendship, family, Religion and Future are ALL dirty word's. You know the TRUTH.

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  88. IF LIFE SEEMS MEANINGLESS....THEN HOW'D YA'AL...FIND IT MEANINGFUL UPTIL NOW....LIVED THIS FAR....
    ALL WE SEEK IS MORE HAPINESS N LESS PAIN IN LIFE....LESS MISERIES...LESS TROUBLE....
    LOOK AROUND YOU.....PEOPLE ARE LIVING WITH EXTREME PAIN, SORROW, MISERY.....LOOK TO THE CHILD WHO IS AN ORPHAN...LOOK TO THE LADY WHO HAS LOST HIS CHILD...LOOK TO THE DISABLED....THE POOR....THE NEEDY....
    ATLEAST 99% OF YA'AL ARE NOT INCLUDED IN ANY OF DESE....
    LOOK TO THE THOSE WHO ARE FACING MUCH MORE PAIN.....AND YET LIVING....DONT DESIRE MUCH BUT A LITTLE HAPINESS FROM LIFE.....
    ITS A STORY PALS.....LIVE TO SEE...ATLEAST...HOW THE STORY ENDS....
    PAIN ARISES NOW N DEN....MUCH PAIN....BUT THE DAYS IT LAST ARE LITTLE....ONLY WE MAKE IT LARGE BY LIVING IN IT...BY LIVING THE PAIN....
    STAY POSITIVE...BELIEVE IN LIFE....BELIEVE IN GOD...HAVE FAITH IN TIME....IT WILL CHANGE....
    NO1 IS HATED IN THIS WORLD...HE JUST NEEDS TO FIND...THE RIGHT ONES...

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    1. I thought god existed but I have lost my belief many years ago I have put a short profile of what has happened to me in my past and to me my future looks bleak if I live much longer my soul will die before my physical body will the name is life sucks

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  89. m 17, almost goin to be 18,grl
    actually i was never interested in studies but my parents thought the opposite. i wanted to join arts but they told me to opt for science and further prepare for medical entrance test(neet-ug). i had no other option left, i can't defend my parents and i never did. my mom is an artist. my dad never liked it. he iz a businessman. he wanted me to live a life full of respect,so wants to see her daughtr as a doctor.you know what my problem is? i listen to the good advices which my parents give me, think on it for a li'l while and after sometime...everything just vanishes. i get back to d old character again. this thing is killing me day by day.
    my parents love me , but they love me a hell lot...dats the biggest prob, they are very emotional.they love me n my bro just too much. ready to give me anything i ask and they'v been givin too9wonder y i even asked for anything).
    i'v been preparing for class 12th boards n medical entrance since too years but feel like i just dont know anything. the problem iz dat i never paid attention in my classes these 2 yrs n now after a month i'm gonna face d boards. dont think i'll even pass in my examinations.i'm not so feared of failing in exams, rather m feared that i wont be able to show my face to my parents. they trust me a lot n they think that i have a strong base in studies so i will bring the highest marks. i hope they knew the truth before, they wouldn't have to face so much pain. m sure i wont get good marks.
    can't even die coz i know if i did, my dad will kill d whole family n himself too...:(
    dnt know what'll happen next, i can't even believe my luck coz it was never with me...

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  90. i married 2 times and 2 relations are now broken, they want money, and i haven't. now i am in this place. but never ever anybody known that i suicide. I hate my life, in all my 40 years i am strangling to so many things in so many way. ( handicapped, heart prob, case, money prob, love failure, lose of job etc) now i am become an idiot in the world. really i am not an idiot, but my circumstances and my fathers alcoholism are the main reasons.
    thank you for all

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  91. I am a 24 year old woman I am married but not living the life I wanted I hate being in this relationship it gets me down everyday don't get me wrong it was great at first but everything is now all it feels like is I am a thing in his life who he can abuse me I can't stand up to him because I will just get a punch or slap I tried running away last year but he found me 2 weeks later. When I was 17 I was 22 weeks pregnant with a baby boy I did not go to full term because my family beat me up and I lost him and now I can't have kids and I want them so bad I have 3 other sisters and they all have kids and 2 of them keep rubbing it in my face telling me I can't have kids because I am damaged goods like yesterday my sister had a baby boy and first thing they do is send 49 photo's to me I don't want this life anymore and that is why I have to leave this world because It's tearing me up inside

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    1. Can understand your pain......but dying will not solv anytng for you sis....it will only create problems for you.........if no1 around you understands you....then ur death will cost them nothing.....ur husband wud go for a marg again...may b that what he'd been waitng for....so.....put a stop on all these thoughts......find a friend...find people who wud understand you.....there a lots and lots around you sis..find them.....
      Carry on....believe.....it will only create further pain...instead Live sis......

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  92. i dunno why i post this, but i just wanted to, before i leave this world.

    im 19, and i hate my fucking life. nothing goes how i would like it to go. everyday when i wake up i just feel totally miserable, because i feel like im trapped or something. every day i hope fortune will maybe smile upon me, but no.

    my whole goddamn life consists out of hate, negativity and problems, i wanna die.

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    1. Hi, Richard.
      I don't know what problems you have, but I recognise myself in the things you have said. I have felt like this so many times since I was a child, and I've wanted to end it all. But I've noticed as the years have gone on that these it does pass. Good things do happen. They don't last I will admit, but they are worth it. My husband hates me, but I have a lovely little boy now. Just seeing his smile makes everything worthwhile. And I think, if I had have killed myself, I would have never seen his beautiful face. It is possible to block out the voices in your head. When you start to feel bad. Turn on the TV. Put on some uplifting music. When my husband is ranting at me, I just think about something else. You can control your thoughts. And your thoughts are the only thing that really exist. Think Happy. You can think it to being any life you want.

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  93. I can't find a single goal in life nor interests (believe me, i've been searching for years), I do have a girlfriend but, besides what some dudes used to say, love isn't all you need. I don't like working (it's not the work itself, it's me. I just find it pointless) and I think changing myself is out of the question. I truly see no point/reason to be alive. The truth is live has nothing for me. Not even being rich would change anything.

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  94. life can suck sometimes lately ive been having deep thouts of suicide dont shit work out for me no matter what it is so iam just ready to die

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  95. Waste of my fucking time, that's good that everything going well for you, I bet you have your own wife and family, good for you, I ain't looking for that shit, and this lying shit on how to do suicide methods, and suicide is not a crime, anyone who thinks it's a crime can go fuck their selves, seriously.

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  96. A day doesn't go by without me considering offing myself, but I don't know an easy, pain free way, and honestly, I don't want to leave my mother hurting or financially unable to pay for my final expenses, she's struggling now... But, I am so tired of being sad and trying so hard to fake it. I was relatively happy in my twenty's, but now, nothing makes me happy, I'm in a deep hole that I can't dig my way out of. I was a nurse, lost all that due to addiction, was in a straight relationship, had a kid, but was in the closet, met my soul mate, he died after nine years from a drug overdose and I've been alone and sad since. I was skinny, and very good looking, I am now, FAT, lost my teeth due to medication and wear dentures and have hep c, and am on disability.. I had it all in my twenties, even though I was living a lie.. Now I suffer from moderate agoraphobia and never socialize accept when I go to the methadone clinic once a week. I can't believe my life has turned in to this. I am trying so hard to finish my bachelors in social work, I'm a bit more than half way through, it's taken five years.. I haven't gone back in a year because i'm too depressed. To sum it up, I'm so lonely it hurts, but gay people are so judgemental, they don't want fat, I wouldn't ever get naked in front of anybody..I was only one thirty, I'm now two twenty. I just long to be happy, but do nothing but eat, sleep, and watch tv. I just hope something will change. I've been on meds for a decade and I guess they keep me somewhat stable, i've had some manic episodes that have gotten me in so much trouble. I could go on forever, I just need somebody to talk with. ugh! I used to be so much fun, happy, silly and people loved to be around me.

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  97. It's 5:01 AM, January the 29th in 2013 as I'm typing this.

    For the past two hours I have been contemplating the idea of killing myself rather than endure life any longer.

    I can no longer tell if the hardships in my life are the driving force behind these suicidal urges, or if some combination of anxiety or depression are coloring my perceptions. I no longer care.

    I have a therapist and am on anti-depressants, but my feelings of hopelessness have not changed. The pain has not changed.

    I am not posting this because I am complaining or trying to vent. I am not trying to have some pathetic contest to see who has the worst life to endure, either.

    I just don't want to feel anymore. The confusion, the pain, the anxiety; all of it.

    Somebody once told me that 'apathy is death' but I can't agree with that. The ability not to feel anything at all sounds wonderful; blissful.

    I have no idea why I'm typing this anymore.

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  98. โลกนี้ไม่สวยหรืออย่างไร ทำไมใครๆถึงอยากจะตายกันนัก?
    และถึงคุณเจ้าของบล็อก ถึงแม้จะรู้ว่าจะอ่านภาษาไทยไม่ออกก็ตาม
    ขอบคุณ เพราะโพสของคุณได้ช่วยชีวิตฉันไว้

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  99. Life is hard....many of us who want to die are misfits...people who have been shunned from one social group to another...we have a propensity toward mental illness, drug abuse and suicide...our lives are not fulfilling and less than adequate...probably the most difficult part is when you begin to understand the inevitability of it all...thats why for younger people killing yourself is silly...you need to atleast give life a chance..however im 31 and just exhausted..Things are not getting better and no matter how hard Ive worked to graduate from college or maintain my sobriety there is no peace....Ive been to soo many therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, neurologists, etc..there comes a point when a person realizes that things wont improve and that you either get busy living or just die and im ready to embrace death...to finally be free

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  100. I'm so depressed in life. Emotionally, financially in all the ways. I know that planning to die is a stupid thing but still... I want to die. I thought it is a simple process, but I understood that it requires lot of courage. I was a positive thinker, I tried all the possible ways to come out the problems and to solve the problems, now I feel that death is the only solution

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    1. I have no courage to die and no courage to live....Dying everyday with problems. This life is a pain. Sometimes I question God, "y did u give this life to me...take it away"

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  101. Mr. ASHISH thanks sir
    The way you gives knowledge awwsome man hats off
    I visited ur prof to find the easy way for sucide but visiting ur prof i m shocked.
    My reason is the same of my frns my 8 year love left me nowhr from last 2 year i m passing wid crying and wid pain dont know what to do
    For her i unobeyed my mom i was so foolish. She came my home more then 1000 times shared everythng wid ma family. My almost family got to know that i will merry her. Today whn she left me my dad and mom finding girl for from last two year but no result just cause of her. No one parents wants already commited damat
    So today i m single and alone
    I have no worry about money because i m working in very well known company having 35 thousand salary but non of mean
    But thanks ASHISH SIR u helped me to survive i have visited ur all blogs pls if u have can pls contact me 08741835706

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  102. i'm still not convinced. Pain is not worth it anymore. I dont have anything to give. That is why im alone, and im in pain

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  103. wouldnt it be fun if we all committed suicide and got someone to take a picture and send it to Ashish`s email? at least i would go out with a smile :)

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  104. I don't know what to do. It's not that my life is bad. I don't want to die, I just don't want to live. does that make any sense? I just don't know what to do, and I'm scared. I'm 17 and in a year I can go to college. I haven't lived long, but I'm just lost. You know how adults tell children "be a kid while you can because when you're older you will wish you were still young"? I took those words to heart, and now that my adult life is starting, I don't know how to handle it. I have been thinking of suicide every day for awhile, and it upsets me. I don't want to die. I'm afraid of not existing. I just don't know how to live. I wish I could be a bystander, and just watch the world change.

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  105. im noufal..i dont wanna live no longer...im really worried about my future..my friends who gettng nice jobs nd they r going to b settled...i feel im a loser...im not a coward but i cant live like full of depression and frustation..last few years i obsesed with sicks ..nd i recoverd from all dat...i have a dream want to pursue highr stds in canda..but due to many reasons its all ways hav been far away my wish...im enterd 23 nw...even evry one can say ur so young u have plenty of time left nd bla bla..nw im realize either suicide or run away from my life..mayb evry motivational speakers are could b right..sum day our destiny will change..so when it would b...

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